Best Laid Plans

I had a post I was composing in my head all last week.  My intent was to write over the weekend, but instead I did a whole lot of nothing.  I caught up on tv shows, parked myself on the couch and did some low level chores around the house.  In fact, I only went out once all weekend, a quick trip to pick out tile for our new bathroom.  Fun!

As far as updates go, here is the latest:

3 Hour GTT:  It sucked royally, thank you very much.  Not my ideal way to spend a morning.  I felt crappy the rest of the day - my system really didn't take kindly to only being fueled by a sickeningly sweet orange drink until close to noon.  However, I passed.  When I met with my doc though, he said my first glucose level after the drink was on the high side, indicating to him my body is having a little difficulty processing sugar.  Though I'm don't have GD, he did tell me to keep an eye on my carbs and sweets for the remainder of the pregnancy.

To Have or Have Not:  A c-section, that is.  We are still undecided.  Doc moved my next u/s up to 2/24, a day when he is in the office.  I am to have the tech call  him in so he can see the evil fibroid for himself and decide what he thinks we should do.  He really is the best though.  I know he is trying to weigh the surgery against just letting me go into labor to see if the fibroid moves on its own because he doesn't want to do the surgery unnecessarily.  But then he always acknowledges that he knows what it took for us to be here, and he doesn't want to take any unnecessary risks with my delivery either.  I trust him immensely, and am definitely looking forward to seeing what he has to say in a couple weeks.

My placenta:  No more previa, but still low lying.  We'll be looking at this closely in a couple of weeks too.

My belly:  Large.  Last week I got a "you are getting SO BIG" from an idiot co-worker.  I have still only gained about 22 pounds, which I consider to be good for where I am - 31 weeks.

The babe: Active.  Especially at night.  He doesn't so much wake me up, my bladder needs or pain in my hands, arms, hips, shoulders take care of that.  But once I turn over, or get back in bed after my pee break, boy does he get to rockin sometimes.  Although last night I was mildly annoyed and really wanted to sleep, I seriously enjoy putting my hand on my belly and feeling all the bumps and motion.  I just lay there and think "that's my baby.  I can't wait to meet you baby!"

My state of mind: Varies.  I go from excited to totally freaked out in the blink of an eye.  I have a whole bunch of baby clothes at home, and detergent to wash them with.  But yet every time I try to take the tags off, this nagging sense of doom overcomes me.  As if taking the tags off will cause something bad to happen.  Logically my brain knows it doesn't work that way, but tell that to my neurotic pregnant emotional core and it does not compute!

The nursery furniture arrives next week, hopefully that will get me moving on actually making progress on the room.

As an aside, we've asked our family and friends to abide by a "no baby showers" rule.  While there was some initial disappointment, mostly from T's family, I think that we eventually achieved mutual understanding that it was just too much for us.  The prospect of having this pregnancy on display as the focus of a couple parties, and bringing scads of baby gear into the house before the babe's arrival just made us both queasy.  After that sank in, people started requesting that we at least register at the big-box-super-baby-store-from-hell.  After lots of research, mostly on my part, we did.  I put together a practical, sensible list of about 25-30 items, priced from $9.99 up to about $150.

Since that day, people have done nothing but complain to me that there is NOT! ENOUGH! STUFF! on our registry.  Keep in mind, we're sharing it with a limited amount of people, we both have small family/friends circles and we're not having showers.  I'm not sure why its necessary to go in and register for things just for the sake of registering for them.  In addition, we are getting a couple of things as hand-me-down items, so no need to register for those.

I have just about run out of patience with the whole scene.  We only registered to stop people from clamoring about how we just HAD to register.  And now that we did, for some reason its not good enough?  It's as if people don't trust us enough to govern our own lives and know what we need for our baby.  And guess what?  If we come home and realize we forgot something that we just can't live without?  The stores will still be open then, won't they?

Aside from that rant, things are going along well.  All I can think about now - I just can't wait to meet my little baby, no matter how he gets here!

Comments

[Kami]

Good for you for taking it easy over the weekend.

How about let labor happen on it's own and then do a c if needed?

I completely understand about the gifts.

Happy to hear the little tyke is still doing well!

[docgrumbles]

sounds like baby is doing well - don't worry about other people or the registry

[grad3]

FYI--- I nominated you on my blog :) Because I love your blog!

[grad3]

FYI--- I nominated you on my blog :) Because I love your blog!

[Rochelle]

There's a Jewish custom of not keeping baby things / gifts in the house until the baby is born safely, for just the reasons you describe here. Usually a friend keeps them for you. Might be something to consider!

[Rochelle]

There is a Jewish custom of not keeping baby gifts/acoutrements in the home until the baby is born safely. Usually a friend will keep them for you. This is for the exact reasons you describe feeling about the tags. Perhaps trying this would make you feel better?

[grad3]

Glad that you have your fabulous dr by your side!

I know it's annoying to have people who are excited for you turn pushy. Not that I am trying to disregard your feelings but did you and your hubby talk about having a "Welcome Baby" party for him after his arrival? And not allowing a date to be set until he is safely in your arms?? Just thinking it may get some people off your back!

Lots of hugs and so thrilled for you!!!!

[Flicka]

I'm glad things seem to be going well! It looks like your doctor is really trying hard to give you what you want. He seems like a great guy.

I know your family and friends are annoying you with their registry requests but it's because they love you. They don't understand because they haven't been there. They want to show you and the baby all the love that they have and in our culture that means GIFTS, GIFTS, GIFTS. They really aren't trying to criticize your list or say you don't know what you need. They just don't understand how scared you are, how much you've lost. If you can be kind to them now, it will go a long way. (Please don't hit me!)