In honor of an historic achievement this morning, I decided to post. You see, about a month ago I finally made the switch from monitoring all the blogs I read on Bloglines to doing so via Google Reader. I am more than pleased with the switch. As a bonus, it also forced me to "clean house" by deleting some blogs I have become less interested in, or those whose authors are no longer posting, etc.
In any case, after doing all the work to make the shift, somehow I let myself lag behind in reading, and suddenly I had hundreds of unread feeds. Well, I started tackling them over the holidays, and finished the last of my unread ones this morning. I actually have ZERO unread feeds right now. WOO HOO!
So - on to the holidays. While we did the usual amount of running around and trying to make everyone happy, I did notice they were far less sad for me this year. I wouldn't exactly say I got a lot of joy out of them either (except for the two hours on Christmas morning spent blissfully alone with my hubby, opening our gifts and drinking cocoa!) but the pain, sadness and grief - they weren't really there either, at least not on the surface anyway. Sure there was some background stuff, but nothing like last year when in the midst of one kid gift-opening frenzy I had to excuse myself and go cry in a back bedroom.
This year, instead, there was lots of talk of what next year will be like with our little one. How things will change, how much different the holidays will look and feel with him around. It's hope. It's forward thinking, instead of the usual dwelling over the past. Thinking about what we have, rather than focusing on all we've lost. It's been nice. Heck - the little guy made out like a bandit THIS Christmas and hes not even here yet. Parents, aunts, cousins, siblings - seems none of them could resist putting a little something for "baby" under the tree. Though this makes the Recurrent Pregnancy Loss part of my brain want to explode, I do appreciate the sentiment.
And lastly, speaking of the little man, things seem to be progressing just fine in there. At my last ob appointment, my doc confirmed that the placenta previa had been upgraded to simply "low lying." This is good, and apparently takes automatic c-section off the table. His growth and everyting else appear to be fine. I've developed quite a belly, and there is no mistaking it - I look pregnant big time.
I'm pleased to note I've only gained about 14-15 pounds at this point (25 weeks) and I am feeling pretty good. Heartburn and trouble getting comfortable in bed are pretty much my top complaints. I can manage those. Next up is another ob appointment after the new year (1/8), the one hour glucola challenge (1/12), and a 28 week ultrasound (1/20) to make sure growth is still on target and that the evil fibroid isn't getting in my boy's way.
I still am amazed we've made it this far, and every time the little man kicks me (and trust me, that is a LOT lately) I can't help but smile a big old smile.
