Today, I was consumed with dead baby thoughts. By the time I pulled into the parking lot at the maternal-fetal medicine office, my hands were literally shaking at the wheel.
I hopped up on the table while the tech asked why my Dr. ordered the u/s. Too embarrassed to say "Because I am neurotic!", I said something like "umm . . . I think he is concerned about my fibroid?" Unfortunately, this caused her to zoom in first on the fibroid, measuring away and looking at it from all sorts of different angles. I couldn't see the little one while this was going on, and I was trying to remain calm. Unfortunately, my husband's trembling, cold hand holding on to mine didn't help in that department.
Soon, she moved on to the "guest of honor," as she referred to it. I was amazed how much more detail we could see today. She measured and examined the heart, brain, kidneys, abdomen, both femurs, and spine. She pronounced each one either "normal," or "good." We were in and out in about 20 minutes.
The fibroid has grown. Last scan I think we were around 7.5 cm. Today was closer to 10. Eeek! Still, there doesn't seem to be any worry about it disturbing the babe. It appears to still be in the way of a vaginal delivery, but that could change. And the reality for me is this: as long as there is a real live healthy baby at the end of this road, I really don't care much how it gets here.
Obviously, we will be able to see things in more detail at the 20 week anatomy scan. But for now, I am happy, and the anxiety has been dialed down a bit. Though I still don't have my "a-ha" moment, I do feel incrementally closer to something good, something joyful. I do think this is going to happen for us.
What exciting news, I'm so, so happy that all is still well :) :) :)
x
Yvonne
Posted by: Yvonne | November 02, 2008 at 06:59 AM
Ah. I hope that peace will last a least a little while. I think it's going to happen for you guys too. But I have thought that for a while. Glad you are coming along!
Posted by: Peeveme | October 30, 2008 at 04:14 PM
Those DBTs can be so persistent! I am glad all looked well with the guest of highest honor.
Posted by: docgrumbles | October 28, 2008 at 12:55 PM
Sorry about your fibroid, but delighted about your BABY!!! : )
Posted by: Rebeccah | October 28, 2008 at 01:37 AM
Yeah peace of mind, even for a moment, is heaven. You so deserve it!
Thanks for your kind comment on my blog. It helps so much to know there are positive vibes coming my way.
Posted by: Judy | October 27, 2008 at 08:29 PM
First of all, let me say, I've followed your blog for a little while now. I am so happy the little one is doing well. Though I haven't struggled with IF, I have many friends who have AND I'm an OB nurse, so I've seen some tragedy...I'm pregnant, 12 weeks with my 3rd and I try not to take even a day for granted. You have a strength I can't even imagine...worrying EVERYDAY. (I've miscarried only once and that was hard enough.) Please know I pray for you and cannot wait to hear the good news in the months to come...
Posted by: Erika | October 26, 2008 at 01:59 PM
Great news! Yeah!!!!
Posted by: Kami | October 25, 2008 at 01:18 PM
Oh, Sherry, how wonderful! It's great to know that the guest of honor is thriving. What a relief, eh? (And I hope his/her roommate's expansionist tendencies are curbed soon. Fibroids are a nuisance, and they don't even pay the rent.)
Posted by: Kath | October 25, 2008 at 03:10 AM