Roller Coaster

You gals are going to start calling me the girl who cried wolf.

I spent 45 frustrating minutes trying to get an appointment this morning.  After last night's on call doc instructed me to call and have them schedule me for an u/s this morning, I called when they opened and was told they had no appointments to give me, and that I should call one of the other office locations.  When I asked what to do if they didn't have anything, her answer was, "well you can always go to the ER."  Um yeah, thanks.  After telling someone in the other office that story, she took pity on me and tried to intervene.   Office #1 then called to say I could come in at 4:30, because they wanted to wait until a doctor was there in case "something happened."  Great, thanks again.  Eventually office #2 called back and said if I wanted to come in right away, I coud come there, or else keep the 4:30 appointment.  Guess which one I chose?

Well it turns out office #2 is in the same location as the Maternal-Fetal Medicine group, and in the hospital I will deliver at.  So I ended up in what they call the antepartum imaging unit.  An extremely nice u/s tech came to get me, and we had our first external ultrasound this pregnancy.  Right away she said "Baby looks good, do you see it moving?" with a smile on her face.  My husband said "Is there a heartbeat?"  And by that time, I could see it myself, before she even pointed it out.

So there was our bean - looking a lot more like a baby this time, wiggling, waving its arms, kicking its legs, etc.  It measured a day ahead, and had a great heartrate - 165-170.  What a relief.  T and I both had to hold back the tears.  They did lots of poking and prodding, looking at the babe every which way, and we got a few pictures to keep.

The MFM doc came in shortly thereafter, and took a couple looks of her own.  She declared it a "very healthy looking pregnancy," and said she saw no reason for the bleeding.  She reiterated it is normal to bleed in the first trimester and that usually the reason is "unknown."  Then she sent us on our way with a smile. 

I'm just staying home the rest of the day to relax - I can't face going back to work today.  I had to lie to my boss about missing a meeting this morning, eventually coming up with the explanation that we had a plumbing emergency in the house.  I so hate lying, but I just couldn't think of anything else to say.  And I'm not ready to tell her yet about the pregnancy.

Man were the past 20 hours or so rough.  I swung from emotion to emotion - fear being the primary one.  I shut down a little, unable to process much - maybe even trying not to process much.  And my poor husband - I think he was possibly more terrified than I was.  He was still at work when I called to tell him I was waiting on a call from the doc because of the blood.  When he walked (correction: ran) in our front door, I couldn't even look at him - sheer terror was written all over his sweet face. 

But oh, the elation when we saw the little babe this morning!  I so want to bring this one home and have her/him here with me, and make us the little family we've been dreaming of fo so long. 

I sincerely hope this was my last scare - and the last time I will see red blood in my underwear for oh, about 30 more weeks.

Comments

[Flicka]

Oh, so glad! NO MORE SCARY STUFF! It's not even Halloween! I'm ridiculously glad that you and the baby are okay.

[Kristen]

That is such fabulous news! It is the most amazing thing to see your little one on the screen, moving and shaking. Bask in this glow for as long as you can. It goes by so quickly, trust me!

[Shilpa]

Good news! By the way, the chance of miscarriage after 10 weeks is less than 1%! Congratulations!!!

[Kath]

PHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEW. I'm so glad, dear Sherry, so glad. I was so worried.

OK, this time is *really* the last time, OK? Do we finally have a deal???

I had to smile at "plumbing emergency." Stick close to the truth, eh?

[Heather]

I'm so happy!!!!

Better to go and find out everything is ok than to not go and turn out that something is going on...with pregnancy you can't be too careful in my book.

Did you get pictures? The heartbeat is great but seeing them wiggle around just makes my heart melt. I have a huge grin on my face right now for you!

[hopefulmother]

Yikes. I'm so glad for the outcome, but too bad you had to go through the scare...

[Yvonne]

Oh YAY YAY YAY! I've been refreshing your page all afternoon waiting for an update!

I'm so, so relieved and excited for you - that is just the best news!

YAAAAAAY for you guys! :) :) :) :)

My wish for you is a very boring, run-of-the-mill, uneventful pregnancy ;)

x
Yvonne

[grad3]

So glad to see this wonderful update!!! YAY for baby!!! Now try to remember to breathe for the next ummm... 28w ;)